I want tragically visible bones
falling apart from years of being alone.
I want a city life
where the street lights will light my way by night.
I want a bed to sleep in deep
and a boy who says I'm worth the keep.
I want a dark, artistic image
and a heart that's not easy to hold.
When he asks about the black smudges;
I will slyly reply,
the ink is what I invest
my business is on paper
sorry to bring my work home.
I may die
a starving artist
alone with you
never to say goodbye again
if that's what you want too.
Staring hard into the eyes of a picture
hoping to find your light
you are the one feeling
I didn't want to fight
Alone
I can still picture you and me
on the day of the worlds supposed ending
we were just beginning
the look in your eyes
told me life was now worth living
the feel of my hand in yours
was enough to open the door to my heart
without tearing it apart
I'll let you in
because now that I know you
I know
you're the only thing I want to feel again
Drift away
don't you just wanna
slip away today?
I honestly don't know
why I stay
when it seems like
you've got certain hell to pay
with so many
you let slip away
they didn't have the strength
to stay.
what debt was it i had to pay
to stay here and pave the way
for the next one
who comes our way
and rushes toward the door
another day.
Don't lie
Don't you dare lie to me
I know there was much more
that you could be
your pain
and
your lies
were what made me say goodbye
Don't lie to me
you were so scarred
problems
so far gone
you had no hope for a prayer
I've lost my faith in you
and with good reason too
I'm done with your crazy games
that drive me insane
I'm done with your words
and your lies
that almost cost me my life.
The moment you turned out the lights,
I slipped away.
My breath warm on your ear,
told you I'd come back one day.
I dissolved into the black,
knowing I would never be back.
Now I'm gone,
a tile in the path,
singing your song.
From now on,
I will carry you in my heart,
in hopes I didn't break yours apart.
You will never leave me,
though I left you.
The dark has seen us through and through
No matter
who takes my heart
I will always feel your grip
as it loosens mine.
reminding me
that it's not fine
what's happening
so I can no longer
go quietly
because you have opened my eyes
I see
the fault in our life
the pain they've caused
it cuts like a knife
our hearts bleed
when they believe
that we don't need
so they leave us alone
for when they're around
we wish they were gone
their words and hands
leave scars we can't erase
but when they leave
it's easy to see
we need the love
we'll never receive.
A girl sits alone in a room full of people
She doesn't care
The girl has missed half the days of school so far
She doesn't care
Her hair hasn't grown an inch
She doesn't care
Her bones are twigs
She doesn't care
Her friends worry
She doesn't care
I see her looking at people who might look back
They don't care
All she wears is black
They don't care
Other people barely notice her
They don't care
But I do.
My spirit is a bird,
my body is a cage.
Someday I will fly away.
They try to hold me back,
and I go back to black,
but sometime this will be a distant day.
They tell me to be grateful,
happy even.
Once they told me not to lie,
but if I told the truth,
I would be telling them I should die.
Life is a gift,
or so they tell me.
I'm trying to find the receipt.
They say not to hold things,
you don't want to keep.
My
Skin
Crawls
At just the sight
Of you
Your eyes
Send
Shivers
Down
My
Spine
Your touch
Might break me
Into
Pieces
You take
The pieces
Of my heart
And make them
A
Part
Of
You
But in the end,
What is there left
For
Me?
When I
Used
To
Be
My
Own.
You should know,
That I may
Never let this go.
You're all I ever wanted,
All I had ever dreamed
You might be.
But you don't want me,
Never will.
I sit so lonely,
Standing still.
This heart of mine,
Still beats for you,
And everything,
We'll never do.
So I thought,
I should tell you,
Before I go,
Something no one else will know,
That I will never,
Let this go.